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♥MWUAH♥
Bubbly
All smiles and laughter
Farhana
twenTEEN
Student
♥♥♥ ♥♥♥
I DREAM:
I want a house by the BEACH
100% Health
Be with my FAMILIA for eternity & beyond
I wana WALK-IN CLOSET
I want a PIANO
Let me ride a HORSE
I wana Swim with the DOLPHINS
Oh i wana LEARN to SWIM
Let me Take the PLANE
& Travel around the WORLD
♥♥♥ ♥♥♥
I WANT:
Lets buy me another ECLAT D'ARPEGE Lanvin perfume
Lets buy me a fresh supply of fruits and veggies everyday(:
Lets buy me a mini lappy
Lets buy me a whole new wadrobe
Lets buy me pretty pretty dresses and heels
Lets buy me a Chanel handbag
Lets buy me a big Fendi bag to lump all my junks in
♥♥♥ ♥♥♥
YOURS TRULY
♥♥♥
Thursday, June 11, 2009@10:34 PM
just ignore this if you hate reading depressing entries.
i always put on a facade.
A facade of an impeccable body who seems fine and alright.
-
What you see me as, are illusions.
I swear.
I swear.
--
and now i come to realize that
im Claustrophobic.
Both physically and mentally.
-
stucked in this feeble body
encumbered by past tragedies affecting one's life.
Mine own.
Im suffocating.
-
Tired.
i cant explain how tired i am.
Tired of consoling myself.
and now i come to realize that
im Claustrophobic.
Both physically and mentally.
-
stucked in this feeble body
encumbered by past tragedies affecting one's life.
Mine own.
Im suffocating.
-
Tired.
i cant explain how tired i am.
Tired of consoling myself.
yet i struggle.
Struggling to get out of nothing.
Struggling to achieve something.
I dont know.
i feel so vulnerable.
brittle.
no doubt;
Emaciated.
Emaciated.
Inhale deeply,
its scary to see all my imperfections, show.
-
i am the biggest lie to myself,
i am the biggest lie to myself,
and i never ever asked to be a part of those one in a million.
that one unlucky one.
maybe there's a blessing somewhere.
but i dont know.
-
that one unlucky one.
maybe there's a blessing somewhere.
but i dont know.
-
i dont mean to whine. I dont mean to complain.
im sorry if it appears to be as such.
but everytime,
and i mean every single damn time this discomfort creeps in,
or whatever shit that can be associated to this thing called pain,
my mind starts to wander around aimlessly.
i get scared.
im sorry if it appears to be as such.
but everytime,
and i mean every single damn time this discomfort creeps in,
or whatever shit that can be associated to this thing called pain,
my mind starts to wander around aimlessly.
i get scared.
and i succumb to the paranoia which surrounds.
-
-
-and nothing seems to palliate this stupid stupid pain.
not even those stupid stupid doctors.
or maybe they just simply cannot be bothered with me.
-
or maybe they just simply cannot be bothered with me.
-
---i hate having this feeling.
this horrible horrible uncertain feeling.
-
stupid girl.
20 years and i am still unable to control my mind.
-
its true.
Its always mind over body,
mind over soul.
this horrible horrible uncertain feeling.
-
stupid girl.
20 years and i am still unable to control my mind.
-
its true.
Its always mind over body,
mind over soul.
but this pain is real.
helpless;
i feel.
i feel.
-
pieces of me, my strength, my health.
distorted. deteriorated.
i need a linchpin.
to piece everything back together.
pieces of me, my strength, my health.
distorted. deteriorated.
i need a linchpin.
to piece everything back together.
--
Normality.
Once a reality.
Now's a myth.
Normality.
Once a reality.
Now's a myth.
let me be 15 again. and forever.
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